Just fleeting moments.

I don’t know why but I feel really alone tonight.
It’s like a big dark cloud is descending over me.
Sometimes I get really sick and tired….really tired of these ups and downs. Never knowing what the day will bring.
Will it be the one in me – finding the joy in the simple things?
Laughing, seeing the funny side of life, the strong and the ever curious… or will it be the other one….the insecure and lonely.
The one who feels all the pain, the disappointment, the betrayal, the hurt.

I get tired of the fight.
What it would be like to be on somewhat of an even keel and feel a semblance of control?

To be able to …..let go.
Move forward.
Create a different “story” about my SELF.
Resurrect the child in me, scrub her clean and tell her it’s ok, SHE is ok.

Happiness is an illusion really. It’s not a tangible thing and it’s not something you work towards achieving then suddenly there you have it all glowing rainbows cupped in your hands and it’s YOURS forever.
It’s moments…isn’t it?
Just fleeting moments.

About Tracy Lundgren

I am a people watcher,life observer, nature lover, spiritual seeker loving this crazy wild ride that life is taking me on. I am still a blank piece of paper waiting to be filled and that is good.
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4 Responses to Just fleeting moments.

  1. ksbeth says:

    there is an ebb and flow to life, it’s okay to have the ups and downs, accepting that will make it easier when the downs return, knowing the ups will come again. hugs )

  2. There are scads and scads of suggestions out there, the million or so self help books and etc…
    Write your own book…stay in the now and develop some tools that will help you through the mood swings and then laugh all the way to the bank when you sell all of your tools.
    Giving you a free tool to start your inventory…”To hell with them if they can’t take a joke.”
    Love, hugs and blessings…ME and the Boss

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