I am very emotional today.
One of our dogs, who went blind just over a year ago, had a seizure the other night. It wasn’t very long, about 6-8 seconds but unmistakably a seizure.
We’ve suspected all along that there might be some kind of neurological problem.
The vets gave the diagnosis of SARDS (Sudden unexplained blindness basically) and offered to do a brain scan which would cost a hefty sum, other tests for Cushings, more hefty sums, but considering her age we decided to take a wait and see approach.
She adapted to being blind really well. Being blind is no reason to have your dog put down, most of them cope extremely well and can live long and happy lives if no other disease conditions are present.
Well, it’s not looking so good now for our dog.
Today she is unsteady on her feet and just looks “not right”. She’s also been turning in circles recently and looking very disoriented. But this seems to come and go.
My gut is telling me that very soon we will have to make the decision. I was almost at that point this morning, crying as I watched her walking very slowly, not seeming to know what she was doing.
I gave her a bath, fussed over her a bit and temporarily she seemed to perk up slightly.
We will take her to the vet this afternoon and see what they say.
It’s hard, do we subject her to a battering of blood tests, give her medicines that may perk her up for a while?
Will these seizures continue?
Most importantly, is she in pain?
I cannot stand to see anything, human or animal, suffer.
I have no problem with euthanasia, it is the kindest thing. I wish people could be allowed that mercy too.
It’s just the question of knowing WHEN it’s time, and then dealing with the grief.